January 2012
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Just to be clear.
Every single time I post a picture of my si, I feel incredibly stupid and embarrassed. And that’s the point. I’m trying to accomplish two things by doing it: one is to stop being embarrassed about my issues and allow myself to reach out for help, and the second is to basically keep myself from doing it. Every time I take out the razor I have to think “are you going to be okay...
Anonymous asked: I'm sure you know this, but if you go to a hospital, you can the help you seem to need based on your posts. I wish you all the best, stay strong.
something weird
me in high school: depressed, isolated, outcast, bullied, self harming, eating disordered, etc.
my brother in high school: homecoming king
….the fuck?
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I don't think I can live much longer like this.
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Fuck this, im relapsing. No point not to now.
Stay strong m’dear. I know you don’t know me, but I’m around if you ever need someone to talk to.
December 2011
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To cut tonight or not,
that is the question.
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I wonder how many diuretics is unsafe to take.
Ah well, like I care anyway.
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The movies I asked to receive for Christmas
are all about mental health and depression and suicide. Guess I’m lucky no one commented on that.
November 2011
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Today has been absolutely horrible.
I’m such a fucking failure. I’m stupid and not at all talented, I’m a hack and a waste of time and space. All I’ve done today is cry, I have so much work due tomorrow but I can’t do it. I just hate everything about myself right now. I can’t deal.
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The messed up minds of those that self injure.
Someone reblogged a picture of one of my self-induced bruises with a caption explaining that it was only mild (well, to be fair, I’m adding the “only”). The person didn’t know I had done it intentionally as I didn’t mention it at all in the post, but even so, it KILLED me to see that. It made me feel like such a big failure. It’s just so stupid: I self injure...
October 2011
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“Only a sick person is disappointed to be healthy.”
– (via howtovisualizeyourweakness)
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Well
looks like I can’t bring creamer into my house any more. Try to give myself one thing I enjoy and I abuse it, so back to black coffee. And how do I punish myself? Burning my thigh and forcing myself to eat dishwasher soap. My throat burns. Fml. Fml fml fml. I am so fucking stupid and fucked up. I’m too old for this stupid shit.
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gpoy.
I Can’t Get No Satisfaction (Thank...
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So...
I finally seem to be leaving this plateau and actually losing weight again. Actually, last week I had to go home to see my parents and of course my mom gave me all this disgusting and fattening food that I had to eat because they insisted we all eat together. I weighed myself the day after when I got home and I hadn’t gained any weight. It was weird, but I was happy.
Also, my period’s...
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This morning
I went to pull on some jeans I got last Christmas. They were one of my favorite pairs because I have a big bum but they fit like a glove. Well, when I pulled them on I noticed that it was a tiny bit tight pulling them on. Then I realized—they were buttoned and zipped. I’m going to have to retire them, I was yanking them up all day. Somehow, I’m not sad about this.
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I try to make people feel good about themselves,...
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Really feel like cutting.
There’s a girl in my class that always points out my cuts…she’s just kinda ditzy I think. Whenever she brings them up around other people I just shrug it off and everyone else is awkwardly silent. Ugh. She’s really clingy, too. We haven’t talked much but she always sits next to me in classes. I don’t mind it really, I just wish she’d stop questioning me...
I notice a lot of sad people on tumblr
life-confessions:
So I have an idea. let’s all decide on a day and make it a holiday, and we’ll call it “Fuck suicide I’m awesomeday” and we’ll all be awesome, we’ll compliment everyone we see and try to make as many people smile or laugh as possible.
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This month's diet is next month's body.
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How to Disappear Completely - Radiohead
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REBLOG IF YOU WANT TO LOSE AT LEAST 10 LBS BY...
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I went out to eat with my grandma today.
She and my uncle kept commenting on how thin and how good I look.
They said whatever I’m doing, keep at it!
Lol.
Will do.
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I can see my hipbones
I love it, I’ve missed them.